Teaching is a profession that takes a lot out of a person. I know of no other profession where ones heart and soul is so closely embedded into the daily grind. When there is success you feel amazing - on top of the world. On the days when things are a little harder you feel as though you have been run over by a bus.
I take teaching very seriously. Devote a lot of time, heart and effort into ‘making a difference’ to my students. I am passionate about being innovative and creative. I try really hard to be the best I can be for my students. Sometimes though this is challenged and I find myself having to justify my actions and beliefs. Sadly, the majority of the time these justifications are to people who have little understanding of the job.
I get into this mindset or mood where I feel really defeated - that perhaps my energy would be better spent doing something where I am truly appreciated. Where I can go home at six and not worry about students that are not progressing. Where I don’t feel like criticsm of my work is a personal attack.
I am hoping this black cloud is a symptom of end of term. I hope I will feel reinvigorated and positive when I wake up in the morning.